I was so happy when I opened up Substack this morning and I saw this post. I thought, "Yay! .... an essay from Kelly!" Thank you for sharing this story. I honor you on your journey. The trouble with sobriety is that I have to feel all these uncomfortable feelings. damn. Keep going, Kelly. Recovery Dharma sounds awesome. ❤️
Thank you, Kelly, for your raw honesty that is as sober as it gets. I guess "sober" is another word for "present." And it sounds like Recovery Dharma is all about that. I am tenderized by your truths and the way you convey them. xoxo
Is big part of sobriety is questioning your sobriety? Like the questioning is actually you being/getting sober… that the questioning is recovering. I’ll have to think on that. I appreciate your openness and willingness to explore your experience out loud, and it’s interesting to feel less alone because of reading a post about loneliness.
Oh, Kelly, some parts of this were so relatable. I don’t drink, but I’m not sober. I have big sugar cravings and have a real issue with Instagram. And there’s the cannabis, which is medicinal, but is that how I’m always using it? (Answer is “no”) Mark related to the Catholic blood of Christ wine, not me, I was raised Methodist and on Welch’s grape juice!
We love you to pieces and really appreciate your vulnerability and raw honesty.
Thanks for taking time out of your adventure to read it! I’m so interested in the idea of sobriety. Like everything it’s on a spectrum and whatever the thing is that we’re stuck on, it points us to something inside - a feeling of lack, covering pain… Love you guys and can’t wait to see you next week!
Kelly, it's always nice to see that you've written something and it's right here for me to read! I know that it can be painful what I'll read, but hope springs eternal. As long as that is true, the possibilities are endless. I know you've been struggling as many of us do, but that commonality is what helps to realize that we're all different and still the same somehow. You are a deep thinker. You don't just dip your toe into the spiritual reality that underlies the superficial parts of life that most people seem happy to skate quickly over.
Thank you for doing that.
Most of my concerns these days seem more concentrated on physical issues with which I continue to try to cope. I remind myself that this too shall pass, and a day will arrive when this will be replaced with something new, hopefully better. At the very least, I no longer am required to rise at some ungodly dark hour to drive into the hospital to care for other people for 13 hours while painfully hobbling from room to room. My new freedom is regardless a blessing.
Keep exploring and writing Kelly. People who think and do as you are important to this world, and for all of us.
Fritz, thank you so much for taking time to read and to send me such a thoughtful comment. We’re all on the struggle bus with something, right? I’m so grateful to be able to write about it and have my work open conversations. I think we are all so overwhelmed with what life has become, just trying to keep all the plates spinning. I'm SO glad you are free from the burden of that hard, valuable work you've done for years and years. I hope your mobility improves soon and you can continue your grand adventures. xoxoxo
I was wondering as I read if I was going to have the courage to tell you that it sounded like maybe you should consider AA at this point. I know nothing about the range of recovery options, so it's all I could think of, but the main point was that it sounded like you needed a community. And then you found one! Good writing and good doing! xoxo
Ha! I’ve told myself a thousand times in these few years that I should consider AA, but could never make myself do it. SO happy to have found this community. Thanks, Becca! xoxo
I was so happy when I opened up Substack this morning and I saw this post. I thought, "Yay! .... an essay from Kelly!" Thank you for sharing this story. I honor you on your journey. The trouble with sobriety is that I have to feel all these uncomfortable feelings. damn. Keep going, Kelly. Recovery Dharma sounds awesome. ❤️
Thank you, dear Hal!
Thanks, Hal! I know you know!
Thank you, Kelly, for your raw honesty that is as sober as it gets. I guess "sober" is another word for "present." And it sounds like Recovery Dharma is all about that. I am tenderized by your truths and the way you convey them. xoxo
Is big part of sobriety is questioning your sobriety? Like the questioning is actually you being/getting sober… that the questioning is recovering. I’ll have to think on that. I appreciate your openness and willingness to explore your experience out loud, and it’s interesting to feel less alone because of reading a post about loneliness.
I love this question, Amy! Thanks for taking time to read and comment. I appreciate you so much!
Oh, Kelly, some parts of this were so relatable. I don’t drink, but I’m not sober. I have big sugar cravings and have a real issue with Instagram. And there’s the cannabis, which is medicinal, but is that how I’m always using it? (Answer is “no”) Mark related to the Catholic blood of Christ wine, not me, I was raised Methodist and on Welch’s grape juice!
We love you to pieces and really appreciate your vulnerability and raw honesty.
Thanks for taking time out of your adventure to read it! I’m so interested in the idea of sobriety. Like everything it’s on a spectrum and whatever the thing is that we’re stuck on, it points us to something inside - a feeling of lack, covering pain… Love you guys and can’t wait to see you next week!
Kelly, it's always nice to see that you've written something and it's right here for me to read! I know that it can be painful what I'll read, but hope springs eternal. As long as that is true, the possibilities are endless. I know you've been struggling as many of us do, but that commonality is what helps to realize that we're all different and still the same somehow. You are a deep thinker. You don't just dip your toe into the spiritual reality that underlies the superficial parts of life that most people seem happy to skate quickly over.
Thank you for doing that.
Most of my concerns these days seem more concentrated on physical issues with which I continue to try to cope. I remind myself that this too shall pass, and a day will arrive when this will be replaced with something new, hopefully better. At the very least, I no longer am required to rise at some ungodly dark hour to drive into the hospital to care for other people for 13 hours while painfully hobbling from room to room. My new freedom is regardless a blessing.
Keep exploring and writing Kelly. People who think and do as you are important to this world, and for all of us.
Fritz, thank you so much for taking time to read and to send me such a thoughtful comment. We’re all on the struggle bus with something, right? I’m so grateful to be able to write about it and have my work open conversations. I think we are all so overwhelmed with what life has become, just trying to keep all the plates spinning. I'm SO glad you are free from the burden of that hard, valuable work you've done for years and years. I hope your mobility improves soon and you can continue your grand adventures. xoxoxo
I was wondering as I read if I was going to have the courage to tell you that it sounded like maybe you should consider AA at this point. I know nothing about the range of recovery options, so it's all I could think of, but the main point was that it sounded like you needed a community. And then you found one! Good writing and good doing! xoxo
Ha! I’ve told myself a thousand times in these few years that I should consider AA, but could never make myself do it. SO happy to have found this community. Thanks, Becca! xoxo